I’m studying again! It’s been a minute, but I’m doing it. I haven’t scheduled my next test yet (#3 out of 5), but I will once I have more material under my belt. Consistency is key here.
I’m doing Dave Ramsey’s Total Money Make Over Baby Steps! I’m currently on Step 2: Paying off my debts with the debt snowball method. I listed out my debts in order from smallest principal to largest, and that’s the order in which I’m paying them. It is a slow process, but seeing my student loan principal balance steadily drop is an encouraging and satisfying feeling. Patience and will-power is key here.
I’m still settling in to my apartment. Oh yeah, I moved out of my mom’s house! Haha, high-key trying to do this whole adulting thing. So far so good, but much like the debt snowball, it’s a long process. Anywho, yes. Settling in. My sofa comes tomorrow, and I will finally have WiFi! *parties like it’s whatever year WiFi became a thing*
I’m becoming a fucking Goddess! When I first started this blog, I wrote this post about becoming a goddess. I made a list of things I wanted to be doing and emotional benchmarks I wanted to reach in order to evolve. What I’ve learned, though, is that I can’t just make a checklist and when it’s all done I’ll be changed. *cries because this is how I’ve lived my entire life* The process of becoming a goddess is actually much simpler.
Note that I said simple, NOT easy. Organic growth happens when you live honestly, at the edge of your comfort zone, and with an open heart. Easier said than done, I know, but the process of making those things a reality is where the evolution occurs!
It took longer than I would have expected of myself, but I finally realized that by focusing on the journey instead of the final result, the pressure was relieved, the idea of failure became less scary, and time flew by (in a good way)! And here I am, 2.5 months after moving out, feeling like I’m finally blossoming into the goddess I’m meant to be.
I still have unachieved goals, and I’m no where near “finished” growing, but I wanted to share all this because I’m just freaking happy. Even when I’m in a funk, I’m still happy. God has blessed me with balanced feelings of contentedness and thirst for an even better version of myself. He did not create me to be mediocre, so who am I to waste day after day NOT being the absolute best I can be? NOT walking in His light and letting it fill me till I’m overflowing, radiant with His love and my own beauty, ready to pour it into those around me?
I just… I’m so grateful. And wherever you are in your journey, I pray for your success, but more importantly, I pray that you learn every lesson God (or the universe, or who/whatever it is you believe in) has for you.
You are important.
You are loved.
We’re all goddesses on the inside. (Even the guys, let’s be real hehe.)
Anywho, time to get back to studying. I have a feeling I’ll be back soon–writing this post made me feel good.
Until next time!